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Will I survive, who will give a damn....
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| Hello |
[Sep. 3rd, 2007|03:07 pm] |
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Hey. Been a long time. Still living though. Lots of news.
Moved to Martinez with my boyfriend, Nick. We live in a cool appt. now. Killer
Still working at Gymboree, now on the weekends I'm driving back and forth from Fremont.
Amanda moved, it makes me sad! She got a kitty, thats pretty cool.
Thats pretty much it. I miss my friends from High School, I guess this is the only way to really contact any of them, that and myspace. I just spent the last hour wondering while looking at the pics of them... why dont they call me? I called them, sent emails and myspace stuff. Right? My number never changed, my only friends are Amanda and Jaclyn. Oh well I work too much now to see them anyways. 5 days a week and school the other 2. I visit my parents when I can, at least once a week. I barley have time to myself, haha oh well. I know.. boo hoo poor little baby. Whatev. |
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| I'm Not Dead! |
[Mar. 19th, 2007|11:22 pm] |
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| | Good Morning Baltimore | ] |
Hey! Get this world, I am not dead! For those who haven't heard from me in a while I'm okay... well ish. Everything great is always followed up by something crappy. *Every action has a opposit reaction* you remember that garbage from high school right? Haha as you can see I kinda do. So my classes at DVC have been goin good, I'm probably doing the best that I have been in a long time. I feel motivated and I want to get good grades and put real work into it. Too bad that my past semesters are really making my transcript suck. Oh well thats one bad thing happening. My money situation is just as frustrating! I've been with Slaveway.. opps! SAFEway for about 2 1/2 years not and I'm still getting poverty level income! Other checkers are making about 20 bucks an hour while I earn a startaling 8.60. I KNOW!!! WHAT THE HECK IS THAT?! Turns out they stiffed me on my raises for the past 2 years! HA! So not only do I hate my job they arent even paying me enough to have fake moral. I already filed a greivence with the union but it takes time and I want my money, its mine I earned it but I just don't have it! HA! And so I hate my job! I got a second one, just had my seconed day. If you know me and my feelings twoards little brats with runny noses and stupid hair cuts and their damn parents thinking their kid is damn cute and doesn't need to have manners and all that crap they you will think my new job is odd. It is, its a gymboree. But I really like it. The parents arent stupid incompitant breeders who cant wrap their shit to prevent the continuation of dumb, they are rich and smart and I like to call them "yuppies". Its 10.50 an hour and I get 50 bucks if i work a birthday party (about 2 hours of 'work') and additional bonus for creating lesson plans (copy and paste of the lesson plans on the gymboree website). So cool, the only down side is no down time. But thats fine, I need to keep busy to keep my mind off of other stuff.
Amanda is moving in summer to Florida and that is super shitty! My best friend is leaving... the state to a different coast! Its not like we see eachother a lot but its the principal of the thing! She will call me on thur. and tell me shes coming down fri. and we should hang out. We just came back from a ski/snowboard/fallingdownamountain trip and it just made me even more sad that shes going away and I won't be able to see her for SOOOOOOO long!
My parents and I aren't getting along again, it was my falt. I don't wanna give the details but I know I was wrong. I messed up big time and they love me but they dont hafta like me. So it just makes home even harder. I'm working on getting on their good side again but I just wish I could go back in time and redo this.
Nick got a letter from the army last week and he is most likely going to be called up to serve. He can go back for 12 to 18 months. 6 months training and 1 year away. Its the strangest thing. I will be sitting there happy and laughing and the next second I am crying and so sad I can't talk and a few moments later I am fine. I cant look at anything military without getting pissed off or sad, but mostly mad. Its not fair. There are people waisting their time in class or working just to live pay check to pay check and dont really care or live for anything or anyone, but they get to live their lives uniterupted. Nick is going to school and getting great grades, got a new job making good money and we would be able to move out and fulfill our dream of falling asleep in eachothers arms and not worry about waking up and driving home or sneaking around. To be able to live together and see eachother whenever possible, hug him and kiss him and know he is only 3 feet away in the next room, just be in life with him. We won't have that now. He will be gone. I just don't know. I am glad I have all that time being eaten up by 2 jobs and school cuz I would go nuts just sitting and thinking.
But that is how my life is now. It has its goods and bads, and thats how the world works. And remember children, you can always say "at least its not the end of the world. I see no horsemen YAY!" I dont say that though, thats a dumb saying! |
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[Jan. 17th, 2007|11:47 pm] |
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Amanda is a great friend! She is always there for me. 30 points for her.
Amanda: 30
Julia: .... 70,496,435,743,593,750,743,573,457,347,537,530,975,934
PS: I have the stomach flu... yay |
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[Jan. 7th, 2007|11:08 pm] |
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Forever and a day has it been since I posted.
I went to new york
I am tired of my job and am searching for a new one
Nick thinks he is going to get called back any day now.... I am hopefull for the opposit
I miss him... He is in Florida visiting a friend
Amanda is also in Florida
I should have been there too!!!!
I got a new bike
I love my Boyfriend
I got the dark angel DVD set for christmas from myself
I love my kitty still
Thats it. comment if you like me! |
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| Ow! |
[Sep. 12th, 2006|11:26 pm] |
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| | Nothing../.!!!!! | ] |
Today, there is a change. Instead of Julia writing, Nicholas Sylvester will be interpreting for his margarita intoxicated girlfriend. School sucks balls. I would enjoy lobbing a fragmentation grenade in speech class, and watching human remains splatter the wall. People at my job are getting married, and it is sooo annoying. Jessica and douche bag Daniel(set him straight when I was discharged from the Army) are no longer getting married. Bunch of stupid fucking cheeseballs. I couldn't stand watching them suck face all over Safeway. I feel so much satisfaction from their worlds destructing. Even more satisfying is that Jessica will no longer be able to sport those 'J' "heart" 'D' earings anymore. That pussy confessed that he never loved her the way he thought he did. Nick works at Safeway now, and I can't keep my eyes off that hot ass. Just the way he heaves those bags of potatos effortlessly over those broad shoulders just drives me crazy. I also want to take this time to declare my undying love for the margarita. They are so damn tasty. Saw the movie the crow, and thought brandon Lee was good looking. Nick's better looking though. Nothing compares to a hardened combat veteran who was willing to sacrifice his life to fight for the freedom of our great nation. I just got done serviceing my serviceman, and it was fucktastic. I can't wait till he's a Liutenant. When I become an Army wife, I will wear some sexy ass heals everday. My parents come home tomarrow and I'm not that excited. I miss them, but in a way I didn't.
Ok ythis is julia and I AGREE... i gthink so. okay byel
UI sderank a lot troday... im so bad and i thionk its a horrible thing. hahahaha dont tell anyhtone! |
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[Aug. 20th, 2006|12:09 am] |
Not too much going on in my life right now. School just started and I bought a book from a girl over the internet (amazon.com) and its the wrong edition. so im trying to get a refund, and I'll need to buy it over again at the dvc book store. Thats all, and work, and yeah thats all. I need to get my wisdom teeth taken out.. slightly impacted and they hurt a little from time to time. Sometimes a lot from time to time. Just painted the bathroom yellow! Yay! Go me and fun color choices.
I love the BK chicken fries commercial... tell me if you love them too. The race car driver and the chicken on the stoop hanging out with the other fries... "maybe I do... Yeah, maybe you do." |
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[Jun. 29th, 2006|10:58 am] |
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thats good fun. Nick cancelled on me yesterday and today. We were supposed to hang out but he didn't want to. The reason sounds bad... so I'm not going to type it. But who knows maybe Its just my perseption of the reason. Possibly its not bad at all, but in my small little mind it was twisted hahaha who knows. All I know is I dont have a car for a few says (long story... I'll probably post that later) and I need to get a perscription filled TODAY! I'll probably ask Nick anyways just to see if he will help. My mom is already gone and I dont know when she will come back haha. |
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| Im happy! |
[Jun. 16th, 2006|03:20 am] |
I have a good life. I have a great boyfriend. Im getting more hours as a cherker now and summer is here! My mom and I are getting along now, pretty well and my dad and I too. I havent asked him about the computer thing and I dont think I will. RENT is coming to SF and I am soo freaking excited. happy.
yeah... And Amanda is home so we get to hang out! freakin sweet!
Hm... for tomorrow i will clean my closit. I will spend time with my mother, go golfing with Nick then i will go to work. And get something for my dad!
Hehehehe
Garage sale is coming up. that sounds like super fun! |
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| psycho |
[Jun. 6th, 2006|12:46 am] |
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You learn a lot by going through someones computer history. My father thinks I have a personality disorder.
They really don't know me... do they. |
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| Sad |
[Jun. 6th, 2006|12:06 am] |
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I am very unhappy right now. Everything was going very well until my mother and father had a meltdown. I don't know why but they do not like Nick anymore. The few reasons are dumb, but I do understand where they are coming from. So now instead of him coming out here, I go to Martinez. Thats fine, its ok I do not mind, its just now my mom hates me. Ok, maybe not hate, but she doesnt like me anymore. I can't do anything to make her happy. Nothing.
I do as she asks shes still unhappy, I talk with her and still... nothing. Whenever I make plans with her she gives me a guilt trip. "You don't have to... Don't pitty me... I know you would rather be with someone else." She doesn't love me anymore. She wants me to break up with Nick. But I love him. I really do. I keep telling myself that she will come around but she wont, maybe... oh hell I dont know.
And for the 30 seconds that I entertain the idea of breaking up with him for her I start to cry. I know it will hurt me and I dont want that to happen. I dont want to leave him. why doesnt she like me anymore. I fucking told her I was going to take her to the movies tomorrow and she doesnt even want to go with me. I swear she does hate me. She said if I decide to be with Nick that shes moving away and doesnt want to see me again. I can actually feel my heart breaking. |
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| I dont care cuz no one else does. |
[Apr. 11th, 2006|11:02 am] |
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This has been a pretty bad week. Not that it really matters anyway.
My mom is mad.. at me? at the situation? I donno.
The doctors suck so bad. I have never been to the hospital or the doctors so much before now.
Nick is... well hes concerned but he shows it in different ways I guess. But doing other stuff and not talking to me or seeing me. That hurts but I guess he just... hasta take a step back from us for now.
My birthday was good. Pretty fun actually, good dinner and a nice comedy show. Jim Gaffigan is very funny. I hurt but it wasnt that bad.
I'm pretty sure my dad thinks I'm faking my "illness" but I dont care.
I hafta go in for more tests, and i got a persciption for my throat. But they wont know whats wrong for a while. Maybe I'll just act like it went away and everything will be normal again. |
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| So close.. |
[Apr. 4th, 2006|09:49 pm] |
I am so bummed. My friend William in Florida had the privalige to meet Anthoney Rapp yesterday. He hung out with him AALLLLL day! ALLLL DAY!!! I was dumb and saw a movie (phone on silent) and didnt get his phone call all day! He was gunna let me talk to him! I am soooooooooo sad! Oh well I'm really tired now.
Still sickish... throat soar and glands sill swollen. Dr. Appt on the 11th.
3 days til my birthday! I hope I get that pony. |
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| Life sucks |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|12:25 pm] |
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So if life didn't suck enough these last two weeks, it just got worse... I list:
Missing the one acts: sucks.
NOt getting any money from not working: sucks.
Nick's uncle passing away: sucks.
Leg continuosly hurting: sucks.
Cat missing for a couple of days: sucks.
Dr. Office being jerks: sucks!
Finding my cat was hit by a car: SUCKS!
The reason my leg hurts is because my liphnods are inflamed because of the medication (the pill) I take and it wont go away for a while: SUCKS!
Having to make up an essay test cuz I was at the dr. office today: Sucks!
It will cost about $450-550 to diagnos correctly whats wrong with my kitty: sucks! Not being able to help him: sucks!
Not being able to help myself: SUcks!
Having to go to the Dr. office AGAIN in 2 weeks to get a... female examination:.... omg thats gunna suck so bad!
Going to work tomorrow for the first time in a week and it still hurts: sucks
Running out of medication: sucks
My math teacher hates me... omg how he hates me: sucks... but I hate him too! cocksucker...
I think thats it for now. I'll be back to bitch later. oh!
Got a cold: sucks
My teeth hurt: sucks
Ok thats it. Can't wait to see all my friends again, hope everyone else's life is gravy. I'm gunna study for my test thing now. I'll ttyl!
HOW WAS THE ONE ACTS! TELL ME HOW GREAT THEY WERE!!!
Love~ |
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| My leg! |
[Mar. 25th, 2006|09:55 am] |
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SO.... Wed. when I woke up my right leg was pretty soar and I didn't know why. Throughout the day it just got worse... and worse and worse! SO finally when it was about 5:30pm at work I called Nick and asked him about soar muscles. Apparently when you pull a muscle you don't limp around or notice that it is swollen. I called my mommy and she took me to the ER. It hurt sooo bad! I was all up and down my leg so bad it hurt. So after a terrifying drive we got there. We were in the waiting room and Nick met us and we waited and waited and waited. I got called in, waited, registered, and waited, then waited some more! When I was seen by the dr. he just asked me about 2 min. worth of questions "where does it hurt? How long? bla bla bla?" We did an ultra sound... after another 2 hours of waiting and got the diagnosis of 'strained muscle' gave me pills and sent me home.
Thursday we went to get my persciption and thank the Lord... VICODIN not! It helps with the pain but it makes me all loopy. I still didnt think it was a 'strained muscle' so I made an appt. with my other dr. and went to her for her oppinion. So now I'm waiting for mon. to get my x-ray. She can't find anything wrong with the muscle but she thinks it may be a pinched nerve or I hurt my foot sometime and sometimes your foot is hurt but your leg feels the pain. So today I'm gunna go to payless shoes and buy better work shoes and walk around in those to see if it helps.
I really wanna go to the show tonight, but my leg isnt feelling better. I dont wanna push it, and I only sit there for an hour, but Nick is like "you shouldn't go, your leg is hurt" and I kinda agree, but I think I'll go anyways. Its only an hour of sitting down so I think I'll be okay.
Wish me luck! |
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[Mar. 17th, 2006|09:07 pm] |
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1) List twenty things you want to say to people but know you never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Disable comments.
4) Never discuss it again.
( I Confess! )
If you think its about you, I bet it isn't. |
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[Mar. 10th, 2006|09:28 am] |
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Everythings going so well!!!!
Recap: I love Nick! I am hopefully transfering out of Floral soon. Schools... welll.... its school! Everything else is just peaching keen! I have new hopes of being a sniper cuz I am damn good at it.
Curious: If Mark in RENT is Jewish and... hopefully connecting his parents into the Jewish religeon as well... on Christmas eve why would his mother call him and say "We'll miss you tomorrow." Which is Christmas day. Is there an important day in Jewish holidays thats the same day as Christmas?... just wondering.
Peace out! |
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| Hostel |
[Jan. 20th, 2006|11:58 pm] |
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Hostel with Daniel... bad. All bad. It made me cry. Bad.
Bad |
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[Jan. 18th, 2006|09:39 pm] |
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| such a long time... |
[Jan. 17th, 2006|01:19 am] |
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wow. its been so long since I've updated this thing. hahaha.... let me think...
I went to the improv show... good show. Kinda sad that I couldn't talk to my friends that much cuz Nick was telling a very long pink joke. Kinda bummed be out but oh well. Carly and I got these dumb kids kicked out of the show. There isnt a lot to say right now, kinda wanna keep a few things to myself. I have found that people take what I say the wrong way. Not just my friends or family but people at work too, most of the time at work it ends up as a dirty joke. Kinda funny, kinda sleezy. (ie. Greg says "wow... that tomatoe is expensive! 3.99 each!" Julia says "wow... that is pricy! Is it really big or something?" Greg: "size does matter, huh baby?" .... ew!!!! Or Vince "how are you julia?" Julia: "Fine thanks. Nothing to complain about!" "ya.... someones in it alright" That was gross.... I was like like "in wha.......... .... ... ." *Shakes head*)
I stayed the night at Amanda's house the other day and watched Jonny depp movies, good times. Her bed sucks though.
OMG! Everyone needs to go see Hoodwinked! FREAKING HILARIOUS!!!!! I almost died I was laughing so hard. Oh.. that movie... plus I ate like... 19,054,387,389,468,974,543 things of candy. Good times!
Peter's home... hehehe that boy... hehehe |
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| The day I had to write down. |
[Dec. 20th, 2005|09:21 am] |
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Yesterday was perfect!!! It was the perfect outing for me. I put this with the days that Carly and I are spontanious (which, hasn't happened for a while so I'm guessing after the holidays spontinaty will ensue!) I'll write this... somewho... hm... I'll just write it! ha!
So... I woke up early to go to Safeway and talk to the store manager Issac. he said sorry for what happened and If I ever get harrased again to just call him. Which is great! Then I drove home and Nick was waiting for me! There was a bird that was being attacked by my kitty, but the bird kinda just gave up. But I saved him and put him in a tree. After that we left to Sylvia's and ate a breakfast (I had a BLT and Nick had a sandwhich). The we hopped on Bart and went to San Francisco!!!!!!!!!!!!
First thing we did was look around the shops and then get lost. (hahaha) Then at about 12:50 we stumbled across our movie theatre that had our show at 1:10pm. We saw (drumroll please) The Producers! It was sooooo amazing! Nick liked it a lot! I was so happy! I was rolling in the isles with laughter! It was great. Totally disapointed in Uma, they should of had an actual singer, or at least dub her! Preferably the first though.... then we went across the street and went ice skating. It wa Nick's first time and I was sooooooo scared for him! But it was great! He didnt fall at all, almost, but didnt. hahaha. It was about five now so then we went to look for somewhere to eat. Walked around, didnt like anything, went to the cheese cake factory and it was packed! Saw a floral street vendor and bought a BLUE ROSE! ya its pretty cool. Finally we found a Lori's diner and ate there.
It was about seven so we decided to take a trolly ride. We took it from Powell to Fisherman's warf. It was cool, we had to sit on the inside of it on the way there. Got out, walked around and sumbled on Ghiradelli square! I haven't been there before but I loved it! We shared a banana split in from of the water. It was perfect! Then we went back on the trolly and sat on the outside. We must have picked the better side cuz when we climbed the hills on the car there was a moment when you saw through all the buildings, down the street to the city. The golden gate bridge was light up, the lights everywhere, from the houses to the buildings were blazing and the moon... The most beautiful orange moon I have ever seen. It was only hidden a little bit by the clouds and everytime we climbed a hill and wanted to just... do something crazy! Kiss Nick, cry, yell, laugh, pass out! I dont know I wanted to do something.
The whole day was perfect! Not too cold, but not hot. I had to take 1 of my jackets off though, but the day was perfect. Absolutly great! Perfect. |
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